Telling Yourself Your Story

I’ve never been good at outlining. Even in school I could rarely figure out where I was going with a paper or an essay until I was halfway into it. I can reverse-engineer one, but figuring out where it’s going before I’ve even written the first paragraph? Madness! Last November, when I haunted the NaNoWriMo forums, I realized that there were nearly as many ways of planning out a story (including not at all) as there were people writing novels. I tried to outline Dream of a Thousand Stars, but something about the structure of it steered me right into a brick wall. Outlining wasn’t right for me. I completed the novel by NaNoWriMo’s standards, closing the final scene at just over 50k words, but it’s likely to be another 50k words before it’s truly finished. Over the last five months I’ve struggled with filling in the blanks I left and the details I glossed over to get to 50k words, and after a lot of trial and error I’ve found a way of planning my novel that works for me: I’m telling myself my story.

One of the best ways to understand a concept is to explain it to someone else. Rather than trying to boil everything down to a skeleton of the story, I’m writing it up as if I was telling the story of my novel, chapter by chapter, to myself–including commentary meant only for me. It starts like this:

Prologue

So it starts with “Little Fox”: A prologue, 6 years before the story proper, in which Etheris finds Reynard unconscious out in the rain, decides to take the sickly kid in, and learns that Rey is connected in some way to his estranged father’s research. Maybe everyone who says “Never start with a prologue” is right, but for now I like it. It establishes Reynard and Etheris’ peculiar relationship and sets up some mystery for the coming narrative.

This lets me set out goals for both the action of the story and character development without feeling constrained to a particular format, while at the same time adding in editorial notes for future consideration. Most importantly (for me), it’s easy to edit if I come across something later that doesn’t quite mesh with what came before. It doesn’t just tell me what happens in that scene, but what the purpose of the scene is and what it’s meant to accomplish. If I go back to edit and that hasn’t been accomplished, I know it needs some work.

I’m sure it’s not for everyone, but if you’re working on a long piece of writing and outlining just isn’t doing it for you, try telling yourself your story. It’s a bit more work, but it may be worth it.

But Is It Art?

I’ve been feeling kind of awkward lately about mixing the ideas of “I’m an aspiring professional writer” and “I’m going to Dallas, TX for a Transformers convention”. I will be the first to admit that the majority of the fiction that comes to mind when your average person thinks about the Transformers brand is, frankly, terrible. The original cartoon was fun, but by and large the scripts aspired to garner paychecks for their writers and little else. The recent movies were train wrecks on all accounts but special effects. They’re the epitome of turn-your-brain-off action movies. Does the fact that I’m enough of a fan of this brand to travel to another state to celebrate it suggest that the sort of tripe most evident in the public consciousness is something to aspire to? No. Absolutely not. I went to BotCon – I have always gone to BotCon – because of fiction that is significantly more obscure, but which rises above the toy-brand roots to be something genuinely good. Just because it’s “licensed fiction” doesn’t mean it can’t be art.

That last part alone – that licensed fiction can have actual literary merit – is a controversial statement in more literary circles, but I’m open-minded. Part of my fondness for science fiction (and sometimes fantasy) is its ability to be about something. When put to its best use it can explore any number of serious philosophical themes. Novels and movies are well-respected for this, but even comics books are known for it. X-Men has always been one big discussion of prejudice and tolerance. Themes of responsibility and morality have driven superhero comics for decades.

Transformers has a great deal of potential as a concept that not all writers have quite grasped, but which some have taken and run with. At BotCon all the fans of a more literary bent were still raving about 2010′s Last Stand of the Wreckers, a story about hero worship, about propaganda, about trust and deceit, and above all about the senseless cruelty of war. Outside of the Transformers fandom you’d be hard-pressed to convince someone that a Transformers story could say so much, but those of us who have moved beyond the cartoons and the movies, who spent our younger years starry-eyed over comic book stories about Autobots facing persistent human distrust and Decepticons struggling to learn to trust for the greater good, we know.

I’ve reached a point where I don’t necessarily aspire to licensed fiction like I used to (though I wouldn’t say no), but I still believe it can be a legitimate form of fiction. It can be art, even if much of it isn’t. There are a lot of themes an adult can still explore in a world of Robots in Disguise.

Personal Connections

I’m at a convention this weekend – and let’s be honest, it’s BotCon. It’s quarter after 1AM and despite a delicious strawberry daiquiri at the hotel bar I’m not going to be able to sleep until I write this post.

Imagine a comic book panel. Since I’m at BotCon, imagine it’s a panel from a Transformers comic. There’s a character in that panel being blown to smithereens. Think of that by itself. Now imagine another version of that panel with another character looking horrified and shouting something like, “STARWINGSHOT*, NOOOOOOOO!” Even if you don’t know who this Starwingshot is or why he’s getting blown up, having another character show emotion at his gristly robo-death gives it more impact. You feel not only for the character dying, but also for the one who has lost someone who was apparently a close friend.

It’s important for characters to have relationships because this helps flesh them out and humanize them, and it’s doubly important when the characters in question are human-like but non-human, such as in a setting like Transformers. A character’s emotional investment in another gives the reader something to empathize with. Simon Furman did an excellent job of this. Though he killed off enough characters, many of them redshirt nobodies just so someone could be killed, to be notorious for it, other characters reacted to these deaths and that alone made them feel like characters who were significant to somebody, even if they’d never shown up before. IDW’s current More Than Meets the Eye title is hugely popular the fandom, and in large part that seems to be because James Roberts nudges the characters into relationships with each other. Even hostile relationships like the one between Cyclonus and Tailgate give the characters a dimension they’d be lacking if all anyone ever did was beat up enemies. As a book almost completely grounded in Cybertronian politics, John Barber’s Robots in Disguise series also uses interpersonal relationships as a vital part of storytelling and characterization. Both of these rise above a lot of Transformers fiction, and they do it by giving characters someone to scream “Noooo!” when they get killed. Playing characters off each other, for friendship or animosity, makes them much more relatable and interesting to the reader.

*I had to add the “shot” to the name so you know it’s a Transformer and not a My Little Pony.

Because I Must

My Day Job has been exceptionally grating lately. Every few years the management oscillates between an emphasis on Quality and an emphasis on Quantity, and the pendulum has been swinging back over to Quantity over the last year. I’m good at Quality. I’m…well, I’m also good at Quantity, but it inspires a mighty rage in me. Last month I found a grey hair, and believe me, dear reader, I am not a person who should have a grey hair. My mother is 53 and doesn’t have a single one. (My father is out of the discussion; If I was going to follow his lead I’d have started a decade ago.) My stress levels are ridiculous.

I’ve been seeing a therapist for a couple years now, which is something that’s become tacky to talk about but is relevant to this post. A therapist is the sort of thing you end up having when you’ve spent 20 years trying to ignore basic elements of yourself for the sake of security and the status quo. Having worked out that little detail, I’ve been talking to her lately about writing and the stress of my day job.

One theme I’ve noticed in books about writing is the idea that writers write. We have to. Most people think writing is an easy thing, but one you have to make yourself do. Neither is true. No offense to anyone who’s ever said this to me, but that old question asking, “Where do you get your ideas?” It makes us cringe a bit. It’s failing at the secret handshake. We get ideas because we can’t not get ideas. In my drama-inclined adolescent years I thought I was mad, but no, I’m just a writer. (Well, possibly I’m also mad.) I write because I must.

With the help of my therapist, I realized that I was so stressed out over the swing to Quantity because it kept me from doing any writing while at work and left me too strung-out to do much writing at home. The solution was to find ways to write at work, even if they weren’t exactly company-approved. I got a notebook and a big pack of pens so I could write without using my computer. I started doing couple-page drabbles about characters from my novel, from my graphic novel, even from my D&D campaigns. It’s helped. It hasn’t completely eliminated rage from my job, but it gives me a nice chunk of mental padding. I haven’t found a second grey hair yet. My work might suffer a little, but not enough to be an actual problem, and I’ll go back to worrying about that when the pendulum swings back to treating me like a human being.

Postmortem on a Script Frenzy Project

This year I just couldn’t quite do it.

In 2011 I took on Script FrenzyNaNoWriMo‘s scripting-oriented younger sibling – as a writing exercise. In November 2010 I decided to take on NaNoWriMo, but in 2011, using the intervening year to work on serious worldbuilding and character creation so that I would come out of November 2011 with a novel draft worthy of being hammered into something publishable. Coming along near the halfway point of that year, I used Script Frenzy 2011 to write a graphic novel-style prelude to my novel so I could get a better handle on my characters and their world. It was never meant to see the light of day, but it succeeded in helping me with my novel.

For 2012 I wanted to do something that hopefully would see the light of day, and in doing so I realized how less forgiving graphic novels, especially when they’re being chopped into single comic issue-sized chapters, are of the Shitty First Draft.

This isn’t to say I’m giving up on that story. Far from it! But scripting something for sequential art requires a mindfulness for pacing that can’t easily be added in later. Pages need to flow properly from one to the next. Scene transitions need to be thought out in relation to panels. In the constraints of 20 or so pages a writer has to make sure those pages contain an actual story, or at the very least a chunk of the arc of one. Going back in to add a scene later can wreck all of that.

This story will still be written. I’m very proud of the script for the first issue. But I want to give it more time and attention than Script Frenzy allows so I can get the pacing right without having to scrap the whole thing a dozen times. Last year was fun, but this year I’m bowing out early. Maybe next year.

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